Something about White Castle at 4am never fails to cheer me up, especially when it's purchased with nickels and dimes. :o)

I saw much of the old crowd I used to hang out with tonight and it felt good. I was reminded of a lot of good memories and recemented (is that a word?) a few friendships. Shout outs and thank yous to Pat, Tim, Nissa, Aaron, Eric, Zach, Jen, Tiffany, and Jim. You guys are great.

Music soothes a weary soul...

Paul Van Dyk - "Forbidden Fruit" (ooooh, so pretty!), "For An Angel" (I wish I knew the story behind this one.)
Little Plastic Jesus - "See & Say" (What can I say? He's incredible.)
BT - "Running Down the Way Up," "Mercury and Solace"
Dune - "So Beautiful"

Thanks guys.

lonliness

I'm doing exactly what all the blogger gurus out there frown upon. I'm going to quote another blog and reuse a link. Megnut had a link to this a few days back - one of the most disgusting and hilarious things I've ever seen.

I'm in the midst of working on a new layout for this entire webpage. In the meantime, the current one is very annoying. I have so much to learn.

If you like hard techno, check out Thomas Schreiber's site and his live set which can be played in Real Player. It's incredible. I miss raving.

I was having a long overdue conversation with Luke Saturday night and we somehow got onto the subject of how much our/my views have changed in the past few years and about being a fence walker. I'm the queen of the fence walkers. I can't seem to form a strong opinion one way or the other on anything. Being able to understand and relate to anyone's point of view can be good or very detrimental. I used to have very strong opinions on many of the issues we were speaking of, at least as they related to me. This was partly because of my parents and the beliefs they instilled in me and partly because of the religion that I was immersed in my entire childhood. Now as I am meeting new people, seeing new things, and having new experiences, those opinions and morals are breaking down. I'm amazed at the world out there that I had no idea existed because I was too shut off to it before. I'm sure much of this isn't tremendously wonderful for me, and may come back to haunt me someday, but in the meantime, I have learned more in the past year or two than I learned the entire first twenty years of my life. It's like neo-cubism - I'm starting to be able to see things from more than one side and it's painting a very strange but fascinating picture.

(As I am feeling no where near as intellectual as I was that night, I'm going to close this here before I babble into oblivion. If I made no sense whatsoever, talk to me.)

To quote Luke who was quoting Calvin and Hobbes, it's like 'neo-cubism.' That is, my recently changed views of everything... more on this tomorrow... off to get some much needed sleep.

Beware of flying Carl Buddig meat packages!

...looking forward to the weekend despite having no clue what I'm going to be doing. I'm a planner. I like to know everything a few days or more ahead. It makes it very hard when the rest of the world isn't. ;P I'm hoping to pull together some sort of reunion of a few old friends that are now living in the area - should be interesting and very fun.

I had to write my own epitaph for class yesterday. Boy was that an interesting task...

My psych class went to a funeral home last night for a tour and saw the embalming room. Despite my anxiousness to see it, in a class of about thirty people, I was the one who couldn't handle it, the one who had to step out of the room because I got faint. I'm disappointed and very humbled.

The rain that we've been getting the last few days is lovely and much needed, but where are these storms they've been talking about? If we're going to get rain we might as well have a little thunder and lightning to go with it.

Mom and Dad are going to be here this weekend. I am hard pressed to find an evening to spend with them around work and everything else. It's funny that despite how bored I get and how uneventful my life seems, I still can never find enough time in the day to get everything done. ;P

I watched the newest version of "Dracula" last night. All I can say is WOW.

"There are some things you learn best in calm and some in storms." - Willa Cather

...and bad dreams... (see previous entry)

I'm not sure I like thinking about this death stuff. It's supposed to be a positive class, supposed to calm fears, but it's creating fears in me that were never there previously.

It's been a good weekend with friends. Two beautiful days, lots of wacky fun (ask me for details if you wish), and very little sleep. Tonight my weekend comes to a close. I have to work a full day tomorrow and will probably come home to a very uneventful evening. It's okay though, I know I will be needing the rest.

Sometimes I think I worry and plan too much. Then when plans aren't made, things aren't thought through, events do or do not occur exactly as I had worried they would. It's frustrating, but somewhat reaffirming as well. And kind of silly.

I'm not the only one. (see previous entry)

I've decided over the last week that I have every mental illness known to man. Chew on that one. ;o)

Congratulations! It's a... blog! And until I figure this thing out... the html of it all... the colors, the fonts, etc, it will be very ugly. Please be patient. :o)

My previous entries are here.